https://ernest.dreamwidth.org/ Queen of Infinite Space - Dreamwidth Studios Sat, 21 Aug 2010 18:19:39 GMT LiveJournal / Dreamwidth Studios ernest personal https://v2.dreamwidth.org/16977685/512411 https://ernest.dreamwidth.org/ 100 98 https://ernest.dreamwidth.org/5781.html Sat, 21 Aug 2010 18:19:39 GMT https://ernest.dreamwidth.org/5781.html I'm seriously freaking out about this and I don't know why. I have everything packed and ready to go. I cleaned my room so it's all nice for me when I come back. I've taken care of my bank account and my computer (his name is Harold)&nbsp; and my phone so I could pretty much get in the car and leave now. And yet I'm upset and lethargic at the same time. I have my narniaexchange to finish up before I go, but it won't go from my head to the computer. Today I just spent a few hours staring at the wall and pretending to sort papers. Yesterday I wrote a whole bunch of angsty resentful Dean fic, because it pretty much matched how I was feeling. Nothing I think of to do can hold my attention for very long. Maybe it's just that I'm worried about leaving my old routine for a new one, but that doesn't make a whole lot of sense, since this current summer routine sucks.<br /><br />okay, okay *breathe*<br /><br />I need a hug or something.<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=ernest&ditemid=5781" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> comments https://ernest.dreamwidth.org/5781.html aargh supernatural real life college bound frustrated public 2