Two Days until College

[ernest]

I'm seriously freaking out about this and I don't know why. I have everything packed and ready to go. I cleaned my room so it's all nice for me when I come back. I've taken care of my bank account and my computer (his name is Harold)  and my phone so I could pretty much get in the car and leave now. And yet I'm upset and lethargic at the same time. I have my narniaexchange to finish up before I go, but it won't go from my head to the computer. Today I just spent a few hours staring at the wall and pretending to sort papers. Yesterday I wrote a whole bunch of angsty resentful Dean fic, because it pretty much matched how I was feeling. Nothing I think of to do can hold my attention for very long. Maybe it's just that I'm worried about leaving my old routine for a new one, but that doesn't make a whole lot of sense, since this current summer routine sucks.

okay, okay *breathe*

I need a hug or something.