Queen of Infinite Space

I'm seriously freaking out about this and I don't know why. I have everything packed and ready to go. I cleaned my room so it's all nice for me when I come back. I've taken care of my bank account and my computer (his name is Harold)  and my phone so I could pretty much get in the car and leave now. And yet I'm upset and lethargic at the same time. I have my narniaexchange to finish up before I go, but it won't go from my head to the computer. Today I just spent a few hours staring at the wall and pretending to sort papers. Yesterday I wrote a whole bunch of angsty resentful Dean fic, because it pretty much matched how I was feeling. Nothing I think of to do can hold my attention for very long. Maybe it's just that I'm worried about leaving my old routine for a new one, but that doesn't make a whole lot of sense, since this current summer routine sucks.

okay, okay *breathe*

I need a hug or something.

1) I'm writing this post from my new laptop. It's beautiful and I think it's name is Harold. It looks like a Harold.

2)
Yes, Shakespeare commentfic is still going on. Go forth and Shakespeare!

3) I go to college in six days. I'm almost all packed, but I still need to sort out my books because I can't take all of my lovelies with me. One Hundred Years of Solitude, Midnight's Children, and A Midsummer Night's Dream are non-negotiable, and so are the history books Stephanie lent me.

4) Narnia! I love everyone in it, especially Edmund, who is an utter BAMF. Jadis is nuts, but you guys are probably tired of hearing me complain about her, so I won't.

5) SUPERNATURAL INDUCES CAPSLOCK! SAM BEING DRUNK AND MAKING DEAN PROMISE TO KILL HIM. OH MY GOODNESS! Also, I'm writing a poem in which they are each other's worst weapons. Sorta.

6) I have two playlists - Brotherly Love and Roadtripping. This means I can include fandoms that aren't just Supernatural. For example "White Wedding" is completely and totally about Laertes/Ophelia. It's so sad, but also awesome.

7) That meme everyone else is doing sounds fun so,

Ask me my Top Five Whatevers. Fannish or personal or pointlessly random. And I will answer them either in comments or a new post, possibly with pictures!

I have half of a supernatural poem running around in my head with nothing to connect it to, and I've discovered something. Fan-poetry is so much harder to write than just regular fic. You need to have some kind of structure, or at least writing style if you're doing free form. The whole thing just needs to be more tight. So one verse about Sam and Dean dreaming is not enough to be a whole poem, but I have no idea what else to put. I want my muse to tell me how this poem goes, is that too much to ask?

Tomorrow is my last day as a counselor at Vacation Bible School and I'm really going to miss all those little kids.

Two and a half weeks till college! I'm going to need to start weaning myself off lj, so I can enjoy the place I'm in.

OH GOD, THIS SHOW HAS LEFT ME COMPLETELY WRECKED. I love all of them so much, and they'd do anything for each other, but this? This was terrible and completely fantastic. Half the time I was cheering for Meg because she's such an amazing character and the other half I was screaming about their family issues and the fact that they were talking about their feelings, in their way.

*The Yellow Eyed Demon is so terrifying and devious, with the way he hunts down kids with psychic abilities and gets them when they're six months old. He's a genius and I almost like him in the strange way you semi-approve of bad guys.

*Also, John is such a great character once you actually see him onscreen for more than a phone call. I was thinking that he's a real jerk with the way he treats his sons, but he's so much more complex than that. And now I know where Sam and Dean get their fiercely overprotective passionate revenge thing from.

*I love Meg, even when she's killing people John loves, because she's so damn good at it. And the exorcism scene? So perfect! Just completely in character for both the girl and the demon inside of her. Oh Meg <3

*zempasuchil puts my feelings about this show best: hahaha, this is pretty much how I watch that show, being incoherent, all "SHOW OMG SHOWWWWW OMG DEAN! DEEEAN! SAM! AAAHH SHOW!"
*AND THEN DEAN CARRIES THE BABY OUT OF THE BURNING HOUSE, JUST LIKE HE  DID WITH SAMMY  ALL THOSE  YEARS AGO

*More talking about feelings and being brotherly. OH BOYS!

*And then it's a CLIFFHANGER, GOD DAMN! This show, it wrecks my heart. Luckily I just went on to the next episode right away

*Bobby is really a cool character! I've heard alot about him, but he's much cooler in person. And the way he helps them with the exorcism and figuring out that she's not actually a demon, but she's possessed by one, and if they get it out of her, it will kill the body! He's just amazing in so many ways

*Things I think are really sexy: Sam speaking Latin, Dean being angry, Dean being protective, Sam seen through Dean's eyes, the way Sam smiles really quick and goes back to his normal face when he's nervous, Jerk/Bitch, Dean' rougish wink, this entire show, etc.

*And then they go to save their father! I guessed pretty quickly that he was possessed, because John would never say "Hey, why are you splashing water all over me?" Because this man knows his stuff and he'd completely understand right away that it's holy water. So that was what tipped me off. But I ignored the warning signs because he was so busy being a good dad and telling Dean that he did the right thing. OH SHOW, you just reel me in, and the scary thing is that it takes like no effort at ALL.

*AND SAM CHOOSES DEAN! OH SAMMY, YOU AND YOUR DIFFICULT DECISIONS. This scene was so intense and lovely.

*Then my stupid megavideo ran out just when Sam was pinned to the wall and I had to wait at least an hour to see the last ten minutes. Luckily zempasuchil warned me that this episode would be a cliffhanger too, so I just waited for the morning.

*Oh YED, so good at baiting Dean. It almost worked too.

*But then Sam can gain superpowers as soon as his brother is in danger. OH SAM! OH DEAN! OH SHOW!

*And then he won't shoot his father, even though it could end the whole thing he's been working on his whole life. Sam, you've reached a new level of maturity.

*AND THEN THEY GET HIT BY A TRUCK! WTF SHOW, DON'T DO THIS TO ME! YOU CAN'T END A SEASON FINALE LIKE THIS, YOU JUST CAN'T!

In conclusion, this show owns my life. It hurts me like nothing else, but I keep coming back for more, I can't help it. OH SHOW!

I've gotten alot of fics almost finished and I'll get around to posting them eventually
    One of these is Singe-Ange, or the one where Castiel is a monkey. IN FRENCH! and then I translated it into English, but I wrote it in French and it's the thought that counts.
    I also have a story in which Christopher Pike and Jim Kirk intersect because of the effect George had on each of them. Except that's not exactly what it ended up being. It's complicated, okay.
    In biology class we saw a movie about deserts and I was thinking about Narnia at the same time, so Edmund is overlapping with sand dunes like complicated script written out by an ancient hand. I don't know if I should post this or not.

I'm almost done with Shalimar the Clown by Salman Rushdie. There's so much imagery in there, it's amazing! lassiterfics and zempasuchil  would especially like it. It turns people into countries while their dreams sprout wings and fly away!
What should I read next, Narnia or His Dark Materials? Because they're like the antithesis of one another but the story is so good in both series.
And after that should I read One Hundred Years of Solitude or Pedro Paramo?