Two Days until College

[ernest]

I'm seriously freaking out about this and I don't know why. I have everything packed and ready to go. I cleaned my room so it's all nice for me when I come back. I've taken care of my bank account and my computer (his name is Harold)  and my phone so I could pretty much get in the car and leave now. And yet I'm upset and lethargic at the same time. I have my narniaexchange to finish up before I go, but it won't go from my head to the computer. Today I just spent a few hours staring at the wall and pretending to sort papers. Yesterday I wrote a whole bunch of angsty resentful Dean fic, because it pretty much matched how I was feeling. Nothing I think of to do can hold my attention for very long. Maybe it's just that I'm worried about leaving my old routine for a new one, but that doesn't make a whole lot of sense, since this current summer routine sucks.

okay, okay *breathe*

I need a hug or something.

Comments

[be_themoon]

oh, man, I know how it feels to be unable to concentrate on anything. *huuugs* My suggestion is to cook something, or if you can't do that play some music, or go for a run, or all of the above. It frequently helps me get back into a doing-things mood, or at least alleviate some of the pressure. <333 I hope you feel better soon!

[ernest]

Thank you so much for the advice. Right now I'm listening to Regina Spektor (&hearts!) and waiting for the water to boil for my macaroni and I already feel much better. *smishes you*